hmm..let mi start my blog from wed night..i went out with mervin, sheila, joyner ,andi(indo trainee) n mervin's brother..we acc andi to go shopping..wah..he dame rich..jus came singapore only..hav few hundard with him liao..
then we went to Phins to hav our dinner...there was a cute guy working there..but only..15yrs old...haha..joyner ask for his name n ages...haha..too young for three of us..haha..we talked n crapped alot there..we had lots of fun..we ordered their fish n chips n 2 otehr main course to share..
then after eating, we went HMV walk around..after that we took a bus to Clark key..to Brework..to drink n chilled...we ordered a 3.5lotres de..then 6 person shared..i drunk 2 glasses..we shared with each other abt our feelings n everything at work..shared abt how we felt abt each other..n everythings..we stayed there till abt 1am..going to 2am..then i n sheila took a cab hm..
then on thurs n fri..i was dame tired..cz nt enough sleep...
today..on leave..cz need to clear the national day PH..then tomorrow off..today went shopping with my mum n brother...but did nt buy anything...haha...tried few skirt but did nt buy at last..haha
made a big mistakes at work again..i forget to order fresh milk to come yesterday..then nt enough to last till next mon..i felt so bad ..i want to take from other outlet..but azman said dun ned..then somemore yesterday..was the day that alex was in bad mood n he also asked azman to do aprisal for all the full timers..oh no...dun know how he grade mi...i know that i m a person who cant take too much stress..i will become ver bad mood de..dun know y..muz control myself..but after wat mervin n sheila had told mi on wed night..whenever i m nt happy at work..i will remind myself wat they had told mi b4.thanks..
I went off @
2:40 PM
going to work later..now checking my mail..today working 11am to 7pm..then going out iwth mervin, joyner n sheila after work..haha..
actually mervin is a nice guy..he is jus like my big brother...he wil make mi hapy with i m angry or sad..he will give mi advice..he take care of mi...actually at first when he jus came..i dunliek him de..cz sometimes he is too straightforward n always thinks that he know more than mi..but no getting better..tonight even going out with him..haha..wired right..a guy that i hate once..n i m close to him..hahatried ..lazy to wake up so early..cz last night work closing..sian..
I went off @
12:07 AM
i decided to step out of the triangle relationship...he still hav feeling for his ex..n he even scold mi jus because i went into his ex friendster page n view n add her..he came to scold mi n ask y i went to disturb her...i jus so angry loh..if he realy loves mi ..he will not do that loh..so i already said that i wan to break up with him liao...i told him..maybe we two r more suitable to be friends rather than bgr relationship..cz some ppl they can be ver good friends but nt bgr relationship..jus like i n johnson last time like that..i suddenly feel more relised after settleing the prob...but yesterday met a ver unhappy thing at work..2 japanese customer..when they came in...they already ver unfriendly liao..then i lead them to the table..then yesterday the tea time crowd was quite busy..then when i went to them to take their order, i did nt smile..then they also gave mi a ver rude attudie , the way they order their drinks n food ver unfriendly also..then i jus repeat their order n went in to key in order..then.it was busy at the moment..i forget one of their oder ..so i went back to them to confirm their order..then they looked ver unhappy liao..they muz be thinking y muz i repeat so many times..then they went in to take the comment card n wrote that i m ver rudt to them..they really spoilt my whole day mood loh..
I went off @
1:47 AM
maybe he still hav feelings for his ex ba..maybe i m really giving too much pressure ba..
today had a talk with azman..gt to know wat guy dun like their gf to ask or do..n i realised that i did wat i should nt do..i really made too many mistakes liao..which make him to be so angry with mi..
he did nt msg mi for few days liao..
n i also never disturb him liao..
i will jus wait n c whether will he come back n look for mi or nt..if he really loves mi ..he will..but if he dun ..then we remains jus friends loh..
maybe we jus dun hav the fate to be bf n gf..maybe its better for us to remains friends..
i really lost confidence in relationship n guys liao..really dun know wat r they thinking n when will they cheat u or hurt u..
really hard to find a good guy..
hiaz..
nvm...i m still young..
sometimes..i really rather mix around with a gp of friends...guys n gers..n chill out..i feel more happy..
my work place come 2 indo trianees..both guys..one call kiki n the other we call him andi..cz his name ver long..n hard to pronuce also..haha
i more n more like this job..i like the ppl there..n the job also..fun..challenge...learnt new things..esp human relationship..how to hav rapport with customers n staffs..
but i will still look for better job with higher pay..its the pay that makes mi wans to leave...
glenna:
thanks for all ur concern..n advice..i felt better now...
I went off @
12:18 PM
nt in good situation these few days..quarrelled with my dear ..he is nt in good mood ecently..n he is a person with will solve his prob himself ..n dun wan otehrs to interfere his life de..
all these its his way of handleing his life..i dun blame him..but we hav nt meet up for 2weeks liao..then recently i went up to c his friendster..i saw a ger wrote a testimonal for him calling him dear...n wat saying that his love is being accepted..i felt so hurt when i read that..then i went to c his pics in the friendster..i saw the pics that he n that ger..many pics/..when i asked him..he said that ger is his ex..n they hav been good friends all the while n hav known each other for 5 yrs liao..
he asked mi nt to interfere his life,,n dun wan mi to ask him abt his friends or family or work..
he said that i m too xiao xi n tends to lose my temper easily..he always ask mi to change for him...ask mi to trust him,..always ask mi to listen to him...
how m i going to hav trust in him after i saw all these in his friendster,..no loh..i wun trust him anymore...
he really dissppoint mi,,i thought i n him can click well as a friend..but maybe we r nt suitable to be together as lover ba...
or maybe i m jus a failure in relationship..
always meeting bad guys..guys who hurt mi..
i suddenly feel like breaking up with him..yes i agree that if u love a person i should toeralte everything of the person..but no matter wat..i jus cant toretale my bf so close with another ger..
I went off @
8:20 AM
off today...went to church in the morning ..then went to crystal jade with my parents n my cousin n her family..the bill was 200plus..wah..we ordered diff diff dishes..nt bad...but the portion was ver small..haha...
then went shopping with them for a while..then we came back hm..played with my cousin's daughter today..
after they went back..i fallen asleep ..the weather was ver cooling..was nice to sleep..
actually my dear wanted to meet mi today de..but raining..then he also nt feeling well..then did nt meet.
so my day today..was jus staying at hm with my family..haha//
I went off @
12:22 PM
At hm now...worked morning shift today...ver tired today..cz last night slept at 1am..maybe cz of the cupp that i drank at PS..i could nt get to sleep at all loh..only managed to sleep around 1am ...hehe
next time dun dare to drink coffee so late liao..
meet up with sharon, deb, ting n glenna yesterday for dinner..actually we wanted to go to a ming ge cafe to chill out n acc glenna to go for her audition..but she nt feeling well yesterday..so she did nt go..then we jus had our dinner at PS..pastamine...ger..muz take care of yourself k..can c that u look ver weak yesterday..
after dinner..glenna went abck hm..then i, ting , sharon n deb shopped around for a while..then while walking..ting n i was chatting..then she asked mi abt andrew..n then i told her that i already lost hope n no more feeling for him liao..then she said dun worry..better guy will come...then i told her.come already..she was shocked..then i told her that i m attached now...sharon n deb were also shocked to hear that..then they asked how long liao,n from where de..then i told them loh...gers..the reason i did nt tell u all earlier was that i wan the thing to be stabel first then tell u all loh..n i also scared tat u all might think that i jus wan to use this guy to forget andrew..sorry if i mistaken u all..may be i tink too much..but i m sure i m nt using this guy to forget andrew..dun worry gers..i wun put in too much hope into every guys now liao...anyway i n this guy r friend all the while so nt so bad...
I went off @
12:01 PM
i hav sore thorat these few days..not feeling good..thought drink more water n honey lemon..it will be ok liao..but its still ver pain..i think muz really go c doctor today liao..these few days did nt go out also..went hm after work...rest ....these few days i m also looking for job at hm..but whenever i went for interview there will be sure smtg cropped up de..the bio skin de was that they need a nutritionist, which i hav no interest in it...then the PA customer service de was that i went to the wrong place ..gt the wrong infor..hiaz..maybe i m meant to stay at coffee club for long be..haha..
I went off @
11:31 PM
finally came in to update my blog...quite some time never update liao....many things happened these few days..
abt work...3 of the indo trianees went abck to their country liao...time really flies...half a yr is gone,....had alot of fun time with them together b4 also...then yesterday reached work at 6.30am..to prepare for the breakfast mtg that a company is having..the both breakfast mtg..i n pc kana..hiaz./...but this time one..the ppl dun really eat alot..so it wasn't ver messy..but they left ver late..around 11.30am then they leave..then we faster turnover for lunch..lunch was quite busy....but luckly..it was ok ...then actually i n pc could leave earlier de..to cover back the one hour that we came earlier for the breakfast mtg de..but at last gt to settle meliana's final pay cheque ..then drag until 3pm then leave...then i n pc went opp to hav our lunch..we had the famous beef noodles...haha.....
heard that there will be a major change in the company....dun know its good or bad...hiaz...
actually going to meet deb they all up tonight for dinner de..but at last cz sharon was nt feeling well..so we postponed to next week..
we hav nt meet up for quite some time liao..
oh ya..last fri..i was working spilt shift..then i got 4hours break in between...i went to perm my hair..hehe...guess how much...$230..wah,..its expensive..but i feel that worth it..cz teh equipments n cream that they used were all good one n is azman recommend de..i believe he wun recommend smtg that is nt good to mi de..somemore his expectation quite high de.so if he said gd..which means ok..then he can also get discount for mi too...hehe...was so happy after doing my hair...hav a new look now..
I went off @
4:09 AM
