its june now..wah..so fast..this month 28th..i will be confirm as a full time staff at coffee club liao...its really fast..
working here is fun but it times its nt cz of money prob...but now getting lesser liao...cz the guy was already sacked off liao..
last sun, the whole group of us from coffee club went out(i,rachel, dorcas, minghui, ah fei, ah leong, gerld, n sunny)....we went to eat at cafe cartel then we walked to suntec to sing kbox..we sung till abt 2am..cz there is no reservation after midnight so they let us sing till 2am loh..then we went to a pub at boat cray(desire pub)...cz we dun feel like going hm..n thats the only pub which open till 6am...but only i , rachel ,sunny, gerled n ah leong went clubing only..the others went hm at around 12am...we really had a fun time that day...i really enjoied myself too...i drink quite alot that day..cz in the kbox they ordered 8jugs of beer n only 5of us drinking..i drink abt 3mugs.then in the pub i still drink abt 2mug( 1 beer n 1 black)... oh no..i m getting more n more wild liao...ok..i need to stop drinking liao...need to control myself...
alot of things happened to mi that night too..really..alot of unexpected things...unbelieveable things...i didn't want it to happen de..but everything jus came to naturely..maybe part of the reason is cz at kbox i m already sian n dizzy liao..then i jus wanna find someone to lie on to ...then that time docas n ming hui already went hm..n rachel n sunny was sitting together (lovey)so i did nt want to disturb them also...then b4 that i n ah leong was chatting abt work matters..n he was also sharing to mi abt his life n ambition. ..then i jus listen loh...i also dun noe why ..as we talked ..we jus gt closer...then i suddenly jus lie on his shoudler cz i jus need a short rest...then he suddenly hold my hand...n jus comfort mi...i also dun noe why i did nt reject at that time..maybe i was too tired to react..then we gt even closer after that..we continue talking ..when i m ok..i started singing again..n he let go my hand...when we were at the pub..we danced..realy dance loh..then when we were tired..we sit down n drink...chatted.. n i n ah leong became even closer at a time...jus like a couple...after clubbing..we even went to eat breakfast n he sent mi hm after that..he is realy a caring guy..n is a guy who will think of the future de..when u slowly listen to wat he want to say n wat he actually thinks..actually he is nt bad...he even told mi..now we r together..hope i will tell him wat m i thinking n dun keep everything to myself ..nt good..then hope that i will understand that he neeed to work alot...he even asked will he affect my work or nt cz we will be seeing each other at work everyday..he even insisted to send mi hm by taxi cz he scared if take mrt i wun hav enough time to sleep when i gt hm..but at last we still took mrt hm cz we waited for ver long but no cab at all...
BUT i somehow regret wat i hav done that night..actually at first i sit close n talk to ah leong was jus to qi ah fei n test whether will he get jealous or nt ..n hope he will..n he will find a chance to sit with mi but at last he did nt ..after he came back from outside there was actually a big space between i n ah leong loh..but he did nt take the chance to sit..i already given him so many chances liao..but he dun treasure.. n after that night he msg mi saying
1. "wah , u so fast forget abt mi already. i zhu fu u n ah leong",
2. "yesterday night seeing u n ah leong holding hands, i felt ver uneasy n unhappy but now ok liao.i can c that u like ah leong, last night u two muz hav a good night together ..seeing u happy ,i m happy",
3. "now say wat also no use liao,i admit that i did love u b4, i also admit that i did thought of to patch with u but seeing u two like that last night i give up already cz i really cant accept it..accept the fact that u two holding hands.."
4. "that night after i left, i dun noe wat happen to u two, i also dun wan to know n there is nothing much to say now..i zhu fu ni men"
5. "wo men yi jing jie shu le. but i wun forget the times that we r together..i will yong yuan fan zai xin li"
6. " its impossible that we patch back now cz i really cant accept wat happen that night.."
7. "u dun blame yourself, yao blame de hua blame mi, blame mi for nt treating u good last time, i did nt sleep at all that nigt, its my first time, we r still friends . the last thing i wanna say is sorry"
i realy dun noe wat i did was right or wrong..i think i muz hav hurt him deep by being close with ah leong...sunny n rachel n glenna said that its good to let him hav a lesson.who asked he dun treasure mi last time...n move on with my life..n if ah leong is good to mi..then go for it..n they felt that how can he push mi away when he hav no feeling for mi n now jus wan mi back like that...who knows he will really treasure mi ..maybe they r right..hiaz..let things goes naturely now ba..
PC: ger..sorry..i dun noe whether will u felt hurt or nt..after hearing these things..esp abt i n ah leong.if u r..sorry...